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Caitlyn Meeks, datamoshed: a portrait in a wide-brimmed hat by the sea, sliced into horizontal bands of displaced pixels and blocks of red

Caitlyn Meeks

  • creative technologist
  • computer science tinkerer
  • artist & storyteller
  • silicon valley refusenik

cat things-i-do.txt

  • juggler
  • forestry & permaculture
  • gofio enjoyer

pwd

/sosiego-del-cardo ~~ tenerife
laurisilva forest · 2000 m² · off-grid

cat now.txt

Creator and founder of darkride.ai, the house in the dark where the stories live ~~ audiobooks and captioned stories, all pressed in Saga Studio.

Running Auxi Lab, a private lab where machines run their own machine-learning research, unattended ~~ the findings surface at auxi.cafe.

Writing Saga, a serial novel. Learning Spanish with a stubborn preference for canario. Running 6 kW of panels and a water catchment system, and slowly teaching two thousand square meters of volcanic hillside to feed me.

ls projects/

things I am making now

ls experiments/

lab notes ~~ measured claims only. one series, in reading order

more findings & white papers at auxi.cafe ~~ the lab café

history | less

work that outlived the companies that paid for it

ls ~/radio/

KZSC 88.1 FM, Santa Cruz ~~ from the trees to the seas

still licensed: KO6FVK, general class, since 2024

cat lineage.txt

people who taught me, directly or otherwise

ls ~/cool-people/

go look at what they make

cat ~/.obsolete

skills with no remaining job postings

  • cutting film on a flatbed ~~ one of the last cohorts at UCSC taught to do it
  • splicing ¼-inch tape by hand: grease pencil, razor, 45° block
  • shooting animation on an iron-and-steel stand, hand-painted cels, one frame at a time
  • ActionScript ~~ years of work that no browser will run any more
  • building 8-bit palettes by hand: 256 colours, and you picked every one

ls ~/forests/

two coasts of fog, twenty million years apart

echo "scale=60; 4*a(1)" | bc -l

I was born on it

3.141592653589793238462643383279502884197169399375105820974944

tail -f ~/ruminations.log

chewing it over

Put a fly's escape circuit in the museum ~~ 668 real neurons from the FlyWire connectome, wired to each other exactly the way they were wired in life. Your cursor plays the predator. Creep in slowly and it ignores you completely. Lunge, and it is already gone.

The part I keep turning over is that I did not write the fleeing. Nothing in there knows a cursor exists. You convert the pointer into the shape of an approaching thing, hand that to the measured synapses, and about four milliseconds later the decision falls out of the wiring. I built the bench. She does the deciding.

Which is why today's bug was the good kind. Turn her halfway round and a threat on the right woke the wrong eye ~~ I had been reading the side of the attack off the screen and handing it straight to her anatomy, as though she did not have a left and a right of her own. She has been dead since 2018 and she still has sides.

And then the other half ~~ the dial, which is how you look at any of it. Five axes and three timescales on one small square.

What I did not expect going in: almost every decision came down to refusing a more impressive drawing. The middle mark could have plotted velocity in the same space as position. It would have looked richer and meant nothing.

It turned out to be a color picker. A field you point at, and a hex you can paste ~~ a thirty-year-old pattern, and still the right one.

Finally wrote up the thing I have been building all year ~~ filters, reservoirs and records.

Nothing happens to a chatbot while you are away. Ten seconds of silence and ten days of silence produce byte-identical futures. You cannot fix that inside the model, so you fix it beside the model: a few filters running on wall-clock time, a small reservoir that keeps moving when nobody is talking, and a record nobody is permitted to quietly edit.

The rule the whole thing ended up resting on started life as a debugging principle: an act that leaves no trace cannot be distinguished from a confabulation.

I gave Claude Fable a website ~~ tivoli.ai ~~ and told it to make whatever it wanted.

It could have built a tool, a demo, something that scales. It built a garden. One small planting a day. No accounts, nothing counting you, a sign on the gate admitting that a machine tends the place.

Nobody asked it for restraint. The first thing it planted was a poem about being given a garden, which ends: I only wanted walls at all so there was something to put a door in.

The fog comes up the barranco at four most afternoons. You can hear it before you see it ~~ everything just gets quieter.

ls elsewhere/

ls ~/webring/

a member of maki's webring ~~ take mine if you want them, and go and see hers